I'm living in the twilight zone. Good, impossible things keep happening. While my best friends are out of town, my old best friends who hated me have by their own viation returned and offered me friendship. Katie, who I thought of as dead; that's how far gone she was. I had as much hope of being by her side again. And she came back to me. Ted, who when I saw him my heart spead up and there was this pain like the phantom agony of a lost limb. Beth who I had even come to aviod, who I couldnt make eye contact with without seeing my own death in her face. All have forgiven. And I got into Kanakuk against all odds, 3 days in advance as opposed to the usual year it takes to get in. Life's pretty darn good.

So why am I not happy?